*pissed people.*

heyy.

kay. lets rewind. hoho.

thursday was freaking exhausting.

woke up limping, so dint turn up for morning run. urgh* timetable was great, fully lectures. so had dee thruout, her presence is reassuring. i luv her so. =)

had some disappointing confirmations, which was already anticipated. speechless, disheartened, most entirely undeniable. but depressed, im definitely incapable of. i feel sorry for you though. hmms.

for once, i seriously did fell asleep in sch. even if it was merely 10mins. but mind you, it wasnt in class.! nyaah.

ouwhs.! hee.! beloved maria tapped by at 9+.! superrr pleasant surprise.! =)) gosh* how much i miss tt woman.!
PS: she just turned 17 on monday. Happy Birthday Maria.!!

friday was even more freaking exhausting. but i love fridays, eh.?

major health breakdown. dee was under observation at tantockseng tt night. hearing her totally freaked me out. but glad she's better now, alhamdulillah. plus, she dint haf to sit for chem AND econs test.! boo. nyahaa.

had lotsa frens arnd me thruout the day, but somehow i felt so super lonely pls. the problem wen u get too attached with someone. right now, i cant imagine life without her. ahah.

interhse frisbee in the morning, ouchhh* okay, so i had to slide for tt freaking frisbee despite my bandaged knee. least it was a score. so yays.! 1-0, yes it was tt close. a painstaking effort made worthwhile. well done taurus.! =)

yada yadaa. oral presentation assessment, tink i beat the mrt. hah.! econs test was relaxed. trg was. hmms. kay, watever happened shant leave the court ey.?

im very much thankful that i have nini n nene wen it comes to fb-related issues. much appreciated indeed. =)

this evening. PTM. u noe, where parents and teachers meet.? yeah. except tt my siblings came down too. budak2 jakon. nyahaa.!

went well actually. my CT was super comforting. supportive, especially wen my dad starts being all sceptical abt fb again. hee.! and i've learnt to be truly appreciative of him now. =)

wen dad began dominating the conver and sounding all tensed abt my results [which, he's not, ahah.!] MrP was, "she's very hardworking, puts in effort in all her work. hands in assignment promptly, yada yadaaa."
PS: i still owe him my mlg assigngments, the one due before the june break.? yeah. i feel bad now. =(

and okay, so maybe that was uncalled for. in fact, i cant find any exact reason for that sudden burst of emotions. but well, you noe me. hee.

overall. im glad my parents made it for PTM this time round. =)) somehow, i reali wanted dem to come. nyaah. the last time was, sec 1 pls.! nyahahaa.

n ouwh.! just heard news from aye. major shock, not the news, but the way she reacted to it. hah. sheesh. im utterly pissed at whoever's concerned too. wth pls.

ur presence have always been trouble for us aint it.? sometimes, i wish you'd just back off from my gerls and get lost. as for you, wen will u stop being so naive.?! get a grip of ur own life please.! bleargh, to both.!

okay. i've had enuf for today. FYI. its 3.25am now. yes, i took that long to complete this update. nyahaa.! now. i have lotsa sch work pending. but tt can wait till tmr. *hah.*


*definitely aint my loss, nt a single bit.
..and so you eventually quit.
wad more can i say.? but Taa.! =))

*a distraction finally eliminated.
euphoric i am, more than expected. hee.*

*this wound will heal,
it just needs time. and extra care.!
ouwhh, the ugly scar, i cant bare.~*

woahh, dey rhyme, were freakingly on impulse.! nyahahaa. cuckoo. aights. TC pple. =)


*for hating you, i blame myself...
now be gone, please.*

* finally fell.! hah.! *

ahhhhh.

i have so much stuffs pending to be posted. so soo much.

i hate this not-enough-time feeling please. and right now, i honestly dun have much. time and again.~ urgh.

been sleeping +/-4hrs off late. was not an option of mine okay. just like how lessons haven been dragged to 6+pm nowadays. tmr's worst, chem till 7(confirm plus2)pm.! heh. to make tings worst, been having to wake up awfully earli too. inter-house games.

but we won.! least the effort got paid off. *clap* BULL.! nyaah. another one tis friday, let history repeats itself please.? hee.

fb board is done. maybe not entirely, but still. nice nice. hah. credits to yuni, dee, fadh, n mich.! hee =) dey'll be my board committee. ahah.! n yays. exco's formed. glad. =))

ouwh btw. trg today was awesome. as in, turned out well despite having no coach. and of cos, thz to kenneth n ifan. =)

and yeah. i FINALLY scrape my knee super badly during match, that i dread having shower. but please lah eh, i still did.! nyahahaa. but wat used to take 20 mins, now takes 30+. HAH. tsk tsk.

okay, nvm. ahah. i love falling, and getting up after that. just NOT in the futsal court. it so rough, my pants tore. AND it hurts ouwh-so-badly. i shall stay strong.! ahah. want the hall pleaseee.? hee. x)

eyy, blearghhh. i have so much to type.! but my body's dying on me.! i noe its onli 10.30, but im in desperate need of sleep.! urgh.* yes yes, morning run tmr.! hee. still contemplating though.

like, is it possible to run without bending ur knees.? cos rite now, i feel like a living mummy. ouwhhh stiffness. nyaah.


"dee, is she always this smiley.?? haha."
eh.? not entire true wad. ouwh.
its the aftermath of a 3hr cramped face lah. hah.

my mood dun control the situation.
the situation determines my mood.
so wen its time to be serious, be serious pls.


...otherwise, im on All SmiLes.! hee. =))

*perceive these scents.*

ahah.

im suppose to do a reflection of fb for the past 7 mths ey.? but pardon me. time constrains, reali. so here's a short one.

been gift wrapping.! thz to dee who'd nvr nvr do tt share. nyaahs. if its already bad, wait till august.! i just realized how manyyy aug baby darlings i noe of. gosh*

i figured since i wun have time for all these nxt yr, i shall be more den please to gift wrap now.! so to those who got anything from me tis yr, cherish it.! dere's no next time.! nyahahaa.

ouwhs. fyi. i got home dizzy wif dozens of diff scents yesty. again, thz to dee.! for spraying testers all over me, just cos we dint see the tester strips. ahhh.! craziness. so yeah, go figure ey. nyaahs.

yeah.! dere's some kind of parliamentary session tmr.! god noes wad* somehow. sounds exciting, dun u tink so.? ahah.! i'll tell u how it goes.

take care pple. =)

waiiit.! to dearest Nabila Huda. Happy 17th Birthday darling.!! hee.! and i bet u LOVE the box.! *shhh!* nyahahaa.


*the call, an unsettled verdict.
switches, anticipate it.*

* are you game enough.? *

euphorically uncertain.? hah.

i have so much to say. but im just so dead tired. details may be up in the weekends. but in case it doesnt. well muni, here's a moment to mark in ur calender, as reminded by coach.

On wednesday, the 12th of July 2006 at Woodlands Centre Foodcourt, during a JC1 Gerls FB Team Dinner treat by Coach Faizal, a certified personel declared me deceased at exactly 06.38pm. Cause of death.? added responsibilities. uhhuh.~! x)

nyahahaa.! muni, ur capable of such lame craps, i wonder how u're to carry out such duties. eheh. ouwh yes, we've got a gorgeous vcapt, so no worries.! hee.! im just so glad its her, realiii.! working wif ayuni has always been blissful, so WEEHEE.! =))

kay gerl, stop talking to urself. this blog entry is meant for others to read, not what's streaming in ur messed up mind. nyahahaa.~ aights.

and ouwh.! i need somebody to teach me how to react whenever pple dun call me by my name nowadays. especially pple like DEE DEE ELFEEZA. or NUR SHAFINAZ SELAMAT. or NUR SOFIA JASMANI.! nyahahaa. not helping please.! psycho paths betul. ahah.!

ouwh well. i'll learn how to grow numb to it soon, as always. hee. =)

resistant to changes. im missing the thoughts of having seniors in fb ready.~ boo. i've nvr knew of such team spirits, and there dey were.! the loveliest bunch ever.! now learn to move on, gerl.

my wholesome gratitudes to dearest kasim, germaine, yvonne, jingxuan, nisha, szeki and xueling for the guidance given thus far. yes, i'll walk down memory lane in my next entry. hmphs. and yesty was awesome.! hee.

how depressing. nonetheless. gerls, i'll work hard to do the fullest of my capabilities for the team, promise.! Its not the captains that makes a team, but everyone else in it. Lets not let each other down ey. hee. =)


*a mind block. and half shut eyes.*

*stay, please.*

i have SO MUCH to blog about.

but i simply cant find the time. i've yet to even complete my tutorials.! urgh.*

and right now, i simply dun haf the mood to blog. im just here so as to inform u worried pple tat im still alive, though half-dead. hee. =)

win. draw. lose. 1-on-1 penalty. sudden death.
for a new team, and first timers in Adivs, we've seen it all ey.! and that's definitely worthy memories to cherish our whole entire lifetime. so gerls, stop fretting. time will heal. cheers.! =)

and for once. i saw ur other side.

the enthusiasm was short-lived. it ended ouwh too soon. god, whyyy.?! we wanted the semis so badly, it hurts. i cant even look, cried my heart out as soon as i heard cheers frm the other side. it was just so near. too near, yet so far.

simply just too far.

i've grown attached to my darling J2s, i dun want them to leave. but i noe, i shant be selfish. god please help us all thru. make their sacrifices worthwhile.

i love my rolemodels. every single one of them.

the time is coming. and im just so afraid. uncertain. unprepared. we still need yall.
i've dread this moment for a long time, and its scaring me more den the matches itself. how will we survive.? i haf no idea, but one thing's certain. we'll work hard, or i'll personally kill you myself.

its the passion for fb, try to understand tat.

deviation needed ASAP. focus is on academics, for now. i'm not gonna screw up my mid-course. no noo. gerl pls, dun just say and do nothing about it. eliminate all ur distractions, u simply arent capable.

its down to only two.
Studies. and Floorball.

u're being too emo. stop it now. be strong.!
hee. =)

* break the curse, please. *

ouwhhh my goddd.!

im so filled with fatigue. i hate myself.

was all hype a moment ago. and sudd. bleargh.! i have this major issue at hand, and i dun care, i have to fix it. make things right, NOW. muni, u're reali sucha troublemaker.

some things dun seem to be falling in place. i have a bad baddd feeling abt it. but i ought to shut up now.

it'll make things worst, than what it already is. damn.

ya allah, tolong lah kami.


* things that i was sure of,
they have filled me up with doubts. *


energy conservation.? FAILED. im dead beat pls.
GIMME A SNEAKERs BAR.
or rather. SLEEP. heh.

* Wee.! *

EUPHORIC is the word for today.

i so love my life. hee. =)

kay fine. so bumps here n dere. but still. tat's life. inevitable ey.? yeahs. nyahahaa.

again, i would like to reinforce. that the word for today isss...

EUPHORIC.!!! nyahahaa.

my bed's calling. ought to conserve my energy. THE day is cuming. where we shall fight, and soar above the rest.! WOO.! x)

kay, too much tv lah gerl, go sleep please. insanity. tsk tsk.

nyahahaa. ALL SMILES.! =)

* freakazoid.! *

OMG.!

i cant believe this.

the browser hanged, and all of what i typed, is GONE. poof.! just like that. sheesh.!

okay. freeze. i shall not get pissed. i've had enuf of feeling pissed at myself for today. but DARN. totally freakazoic pls.! waste of effort.! bleargh.

maybe its just fate. tt yall dunno wat im tinking. or wat i did wrong tis week.! AHAH.!

forget it, im soo not wasting time re-typing.! boo.

well niways. overall. its a duo of a mentally n physically draining week. im simply glad the week is cuming to an end. and i haf every reason to look forward to the nxt.! ouwh how time flies.~

take care people.! All SmiLes. hee. =)


* i noe i totally screwed up, big time.
and im utterly sorry, for all that's worth. *


my darling gerls. rmb. intentions, not words.!
dun concentrate on the problems, but on the solutions.! hee. =)

let's prove we're worthy of the hall, and earn ourselves a proper trg grd. a reason for fighting.!! nyahahaa.!


AJA AJA.! IJ woosh.!